I died a long time ago. I just never realized it. I let small, petty, hate filled people beat me down. I never told them it was unacceptable. Of course, at one particular time, if I said anything at all I could have been killed. There were many times I was almost beaten to death. Back in the late 50's and early 60's people got away with treating their children like animals. The town I lived in turned a blind eye to it. No reason to shame the town. I never shook that off completely. I came to fear the pain of having things taken away from me. And to avoid that pain, I just quit trying to have anything. That way, if I had nothing, nothing could be taken away. And if nothing could be taken away from me, I was safe from the pain of having something taken. Crazy, isn't it? Sure, it is easy to analyze it. But to live with the fear of being killed because I was trying to make something out of my life is a fear that doesn't die easily. I came to the conclusion that I was never going to trust anyone, ever again. That is no way to live. I might as well find some soft snow to lie on this winter and freeze to death. That is what I am doing now. Life begins when you start living. I think some people have the good fortune of having a nurturing environment that teaches them that. The only thing my parents ever taught me was hate.

I remember a quote from the film The Seventh Samurai. The Masters are training the towns people to defend themselves against the evil gang that is about to plunder their village and farms. One particular Master was teaching his group. All he did was run. He made them run everywhere they went. He told them, "where ever we go we run. Once we stop running, we die".

Beatles Lyrics


July 27, 2007

I'd like to make available for down load this article The Men Who Stole The Show. It is a nice summary of the main points in Dick Cheney's 1993 document "Defense Strategy for the 90's - The Regional Defense Strategy", and also a fair assessment of the mentalities that produced it. I have said August is my month. The truth of the matter is the world is on the brink of a nuclear holocaust. I have a gut feeling that a "red flag" opperation will unfold in August that will further enable the neocons to fulfill their vision of global hegemony. If you look at the logistics, what do these people think China will do? This part of the equation never filters into the airwaves. It is always the radical Islamist faction. But lets get serious here. If the US has plans on global domination, do you think the Chinese are just going to roll over? I do not think these guys have a clue as to the consequences of their plans. Arrogance has blinded them. They see only what the want to see. And these people consider themselves superior? The only thing they have accomplished is flushing the US down the shit hole, and themselves along with.

Things are dire, but there may be a way out of this coming debacle. There are 100's of web sites, Blogs, etc. talking about the 911 hoax, the fascists controlling the White House, and other important issues. The trouble is they often present their information in a shrill, paranoid, or egotistical manner. The message is lost because these folks come across as nut jobs. Quoting a random biblical verse completely out of context doesn't lend credence to your opinion that Bush is a bad president, that people have hijacked the White House, or that the news media is nothing more than a propaganda mill. Telling people you are channeling information from the Ascended Masters, or the Galactic Council is not going to convince people that Bush is in league with Satan, or that Dick Cheney is a shape shifting demon. I hope that Bush is not in league with the Devil, and I pray that Dick Cheney is not a demon. This is what I am reading on many web sites. Telling people that the neocons are actually the offspring of a race of Reptiles that have been ruling the Earth for thousands of years is not going to produce confidence in your message, or win over those people who suspect something is wrong, but haven't been able to make a definite conclusion. It takes someone like Bill Moyers to present the possibility that something is terribly wrong in Washington, and it is the responsibility of people in positions of legal authority to act. Please read the following interview: Bill Moyers Mentions Impeachment

I myself have been guilty to a certain degree in giving the impression that I haven't got both oars in the water. But I will say this. I have always backed up what I am saying with reliable sources. I rant, I rave, I obcess. I have never tried to convince anyone otherwise. I have always said my peace without reservations. I don't consider my views on the world to be in league with the paranoid, the religous fanatics, or the lunatic fringe. I have never told anyone what to think, or what the "real story" is. I have stood by this statement, "It is up to you to decide what is the TRUTH." I know the documents I present here are top of the line. You aren't going to get news or inforamtion like this on the TV, or in the newspaper. That has always been the main focus of Time to Blog! - provide source material, and provide links to sites you may not easily find.

But all good things must pass. I have to move forward and narrow my focus at this time. I will drive myself crazy if I continue to focus on this insane group of scum bags that I lovingly refer to as "The Powers That Be." I have to direct my energies on being happy with the life I have. I want to teach myself how to play the bass guitar. I want to learn more about computer programming. I need to continue my education in the knowledge of the occult. I want to hone my martial art skills. All this takes time and energy. Both of these resources are finite. The links and the documents I have provided this month may answer lingering question about what is happening in Washington. If they help you in your personal quest to understand where we are as a Nation, and where we are headed, than my task is complete. I need to change directions, find peace, and enjoy the day to day events of my own little corner of the world. I have an obligation to make this space a happier place, and a happy place for those who occupy the same space. This is all I am capable of. And, this conclusion humbles me.

One last batch of documents on the subject of NWO.
The potential for abuse is all too obvious. The insane grab for absolute power is unquestioned. They say be careful what you wish for. My comments that "the greatest contribution mankind can make to the Universe is to annihilate ourselves" is now a possibility. I feel remorse for those thoughts, even if I do believe the majority of us are nothing but brutes and fools. Despite that we deserve a better world than the one that is being shoved up our ass.
National Security Presidential Directive/NSPD 51
Cheney Determined To Strike In US With WMD This Summer
Executive Order: Blocking Property of Certain Persons Who Threaten Stabilization Efforts in Iraq
The Kissinger Connection

Can there be any doubt where this is all heading?


July 26, 2007

I came across this gentleman's Blog through the Iraq Today link. He is a superb writer having 100's of published articles to his credit. I posting the article he wrote on his Blog site called, "Of Crazies, Neocons and the Enemy Within." I know I wasn't going to obsess about these people anymore, but this was such a compelling article I felt obligated to read it in it's entirety. When I had finished, I realized I had all the documentation the article mentioned, but didn't specify. The main thrust of the work was the message. I took the liberty of adding the links to the proper documentation. The documents I talked about on July 15 can be accessed through this article. This really is worth looking at. I have lost faith that any of us are in any sort of position to stop what is happening. That is a defeatist attitude, but let's face the facts. If the powers of Legislative Branch of the US Government is looking the other way, what can we as ordinary citizens do? The very people who are in service to the country have left us dangling and twisting in the wind. It is all about power and money. That is what it boils down to. I still believe that our elected officials have been blackmailed, and coerced into submission by the neo conservatives. That is why I am struggling with the task of trying to build a refuge of sanity and peace in my little corner of the world before the shit hits the fan, and that dream too goes down in flames. Manuel Valenzuela Article


July 25, 2007

Got off my dead ass and started training again. It was not easy. You know how far you have sunk when you start exerting yourself again after a long hiatus. I know if I don't keep moving forward, I am dead in the water. Growing old is a terrible thing to face. Who cherishes the idea of being so decrepit you can't take care of yourself? I am a ways from this point, but I think I heard the rattle. It is time to grow up. The great Masters have taught that embracing death is the true path of a warrior, and that being aware of death is the path to enlightenment. I have to agree. I understand the message. July is winding down. August is my month. A link to ALL the Iraqi News you need is at the top left of this page. I used to have a link back to the Time To Blog! main site, but this link is more important. ANYTHING you want to know about what is happening in Iraq on a daily basis is here. I will continue to post this link till this nightmare is over, or the site goes down. I pray for the former.


July 24, 2007

The 2008 Olympics is next summer. The world's eyes will be on China, and the news media will be focusing on "this economic miracle of Asia." I guarantee that the news media will focus on all the good things China is accomplishing. It has been briefly reported how this economic miracle has been accomplished through slave labor. Will the news media touch this? I don't think it will because the Olympics mean BIG DOLLARS in corporate endorsements, TV commercials, and all that happy capitalistic horseshit that fuels the world economy. Another topic that won't be discussed to any great degree (if at all)
will be the occupation of Tibet (or the fate of Gedhun Choekyi Nyima the Panchen Lama).

I have two documents for you to down load. One concerns the treatment of the people from Tibet. The other deals with the treatment of China's citizens. I hate to be negative, but it is too easy to just dismiss the human right's abuses occurring throughout the world, especially in China. All you have to do is turn the channel and pretend it isn't happening. And if you are able to turn a blind eye to this, it isn't a stretch of the imagination to someday wake up in the very near future and see troops goose stepping past your front window.


Prisoners of Tibet 2006 Special Report


Congressional-Executive Commission on China 2003 Special Report


July 23, 2007

The weather is perfect. You just can not expect better climate than what is currently just outside my front door. The air is dry, the sun is shinning, and it is moderately warm. It just doesn't get any better in late July. I went to this little restaurant a few blocks from my apartment this morning. It is called the Koffee Kup. It isn't anything special. It is nice to have an omelette prepared for you and to just sit quietly reading the paper sipping on a cup of coffee. After my food settles, I am going to drag my exercise bike outside and put some miles on it. After that, I will stretch. It is a start on what unfortunately is a long road ahead to endurance competence. My 52nd birthday is August 10th. I have not established a working foundation that will incorporate the bedrock of my present existence. I was laying in bed last night thinking, "what is to I want to accomplish?" I think that is a fair question considering that for the greater part of my life I have wandered between highs and lows of self doubt and self realization. Self doubts and external circumstance have derailed me from a long term, sustained path of self actualization. That isn't acceptable. I know this, and I accept responsibility for this short coming. External circumstances can never be a reason for not pursuing your Path. That is what having a foundation in your life is for. It is supposed to be a refuge and a source of strength against the winds of fortune. To live otherwise is the realm of the herd who toss and turn at disapproving glances from the great unwashed. I am not living my life to please others. But, I have let myself down for not creating a foundation that I live by. I have principals, but a true Master has a Path. This Path is set in stone. It is the bedrock.

I know what it is I want to accomplish with the rest of my life. I have to realize that the energy needed to put this Plan into motion is substantial. I said it might be ten years in the making. I don't think it will take that long to create the initial kinetic field of energy. Once that is accomplished, it is only a matter of increasing the velocity. Time is my friend. It is not my enemy. What I can accomplish in the next ten years is unlimited in scope. What is necessary is the commitment. I have to believe that this will change my life for the better. I know it can. The other choice is to roll over and die emotionally and spiritually. This I refuse to do.


July 21, 2007




I have been busy the past two days downloading books from Free Book Spot. You will need the WinAce zip program to unzip these documents. It is free. It was when I downloaded it a year ago. I never use it much except on the rare occasion when people use this particular utility. I prefer WinZip. Regardless, this is a fantastic archive! If you are looking for any computer technical manuals; C++, Perl, Java, A+ Certification, Linux, PHP, etc - this is your one stop smorgasboard. The number of topics and authors covered here is really mind boggling. When I find sources like this one, I tend to go over board. You never know when they will disappear, so I get what I can when I can. Here are the titles I got:

Kill or Get Killed by Lieutenant Colonel Rex Applegate
Close Combat by The Department of the Navy
Hagukure - Boom of the Samari by Yamamoto Tsunetomo
Combat Techniques of Taiji, Xingyi, and Bagua - Principles and Practices of Internal Martial Arts by Lu Shengli
Muay Thai - The Art of Fighting by Yod Ruerngsa, Khun Kao Charuad, and James Cartmell
Children of the Matrix by David Icke
A+ Certification for Dummies 3rd Edition by Ron Gilster
The PHP5and MySQL Bible by Tim Converse and Joyce Park
Playboy's Lingerie Special Edition March/April 2004
Building a Home Distillation Apparatus by Small Still Enginering LLC
Robert A. Heinlein 54 books (one .PDF file)
String Theory Revolution by Leonard Suuskind and James Lindesay
The Magical and Ritual Use of Herbs by Richard Allen Miller

As you can see, I went crazy but the martial art books will most definitely be incorporated into my physical fitness regimen. These are not junk books either. These documents are the cream of the crop. I also have the US Navy Seal's Training Guide. Man, I have everything I need! My personal library now contains 5.02 GigaBytes of Information comprising 90,324 files contained in 10,147 folders. That is truly a remarkable amount of information downloaded using a modem connection to the Internet. This master library holds all the knowledge I will ever need to accomplish the goals I have set before me. Tomorrow, I begin physically training again (aka torturing myself). I asked for it. I know it isn't going to be pretty, but what has to be done will be done. The Body has to be the starting point. From here you train the Mind, and in the process you train the Spirit. This is what I learned from my years of training in the Art of Tang Soo Do. I am also going to start writing a paper that may end up being a book. I can not divulge the contents at this time. When it is complete, I will share it with the world. Enjoy Free Book Spot!


July 18, 2007

The only news I am getting on the Tillman Investigation is through the Internet, and what is considered "non-traditional" sources. Through these sources, I am finding written materials from "mainstream" print media. Sadly, the Tillman situation is a just another glaring example of the pervading paranoia and arrogance surrounding The White House. During the Watergate Hearings, John Dean said, "there is a cancer surrounding the President..." I fear a malignant cancer has infected the Bush Administration. This cancer has a name ... neo conservative. The documentation I am reading mentioned on July 15 only reinforce my astonishment that a political agenda answering to no one is controlling our Nation. People are taking notice, and questions as to why it isn't being stopped are coming to the fore front. This may be well and good, but I fear it is too late to stop the Powers That Be. The very law makers we elected to serve our interests have been corrupted and compromised. The DC Madam story only confirms the perverted agenda that is being perpetrated on the American public. This self serving agenda has a long history, and it has been crafted with skill.

It is definitely time for me to turn my energies to other projects of a positive nature. Not that uncovering why things are the way they are hasn't been positive ... it has. But thinking it might make a universal difference in regards to a positive change, or a change in my personal life for the better is a pipe dream. The self serving agenda dominating world politics is ancient. It started long before my birth, and will continue long after my death. These are facts. My conclusion is simply this. It is time to move forward and to focus on the positive contribution I can make in a small way in my corner of life. That is all I can change. Maybe that is enough. Time To Blog! is changing gears. This has to be my last post concerning the political agenda of the those I generically refer to as The Powers That Be.

I said a long time ago, "they can have the world." The future posts here will concern only my desire for self growth, and creating a personal situation where peace of mind is paramount. Once I have established this, if it is even possible, I can proceed to make the corner of my world a better place. That is more important to me than uncovering the game plan of the Illuminati, The Committee of 300, The Club of Rome, The Black Nobility, The Bohemian Grove Club, The Military/Industrial Complex, The Bilderberg Group, The Brotherhood of the Snake, the neo conservatives ... what ever you want to call THEM. These people have made the choice to serve themselves. They are Luciferian. That is the way things are. During Micheal Jackson's latest molestation trial, one thing was said that put the entire debacle into perspective. The woman suing Jackson looked at him and said, "whatever happens here, one thing is certain - people know who you are and what you are." Maybe that was the purpose of this entire period I have been experiencing. I see the world in a different light. It is a far more dangerous and evil world that I imagined, but I see it for what it is. In order to believe in angels, you have to believe in demons. I have seen the demons. Therefore, there must be angels - somewhere.

For a comprehensive analysis of the Tillman situation: Tillman Probe Hits Wall


July 17, 2007

"When Fascism comes to America, it will be wrapped in the flag and carrying the cross."
Sinclair Lewis

John S. Koppel, a civil appellate attorney with the Department of Justice since 1981 writes:

In the course of its tenure since the Sept. 11 attacks, the Bush administration has turned the entire government (and the DOJ in particular) into a veritable Augean stable on issues such as civil rights, civil liberties, international law and basic human rights, as well as criminal prosecution and federal employment and contracting practices. It has systematically undermined the rule of law in the name of fighting terrorism, and it has sought to insulate its actions from legislative or judicial scrutiny and accountability by invoking national security at every turn, engaging in persistent fearmongering, routinely impugning the integrity and/or patriotism of its critics, and protecting its own lawbreakers. This is neither normal government conduct nor "politics as usual," but a national disgrace of a magnitude unseen since the days of Watergate - which, in fact, I believe it eclipses.
Full Article Here

Bush Hammers Al Qaeda Link to Iraq Violence.

This type of news reporting is becoming appallingly rare. The lifeblood of Democracy depends on quality self analysis. The present course of spinning the news is for all intensive purposes nothing more than shameless manipulation of public opinion.
In other words - Propaganda. Full Article Here

I am posting these articles to help balance what I percieve to be inadequate coverage of the core problems facing our nation. If we are unable or unwilling to look reality square in the eyes, how are we ever going to crawl out of this hole we have dug, and tossed our nation into? Perhaps the best appraoch to this problem is to create peace in the corner of our personal worlds. If we are to help alleviate the suffering of mankind, we have to help those people we deal with on a daily basis. An individual, personal approach seems to be the most effective and long term solution. The efforts of countless men and women far more enlightened than myself have not ended this nightmare of evil that endures from one century to the next. In this context, what can I do? I am a simple man.

I am disappointed with myself for not getting out of bed early this morning to participate in the Fire the Grid exercise. I tried accessing the web site for a news update, and found that it is currently offline. Is this a Denial of Service attack? Are people trying to sabotage this effort to create peace in the world? I have stated that I had reservations as to the effectiveness of this endeavor, but any attempt to promote peace is a worthy enterprise. This collective action of projecting love into the Universe in order to heal humanity isn't that far fetched. What must continue is an individual continuation of that process on a daily basis.

The following article is worth reading. It is a scholarly piece written by Alan Cantwell, MD that puts the HIV/AIDS origination into a concise perspective. I added a link at the end of the article for your consideration. I do not always agree with conclusions I post here from other sources. But in the spirit of research, I include them. It has been said that "Truth is stranger than fiction." And the more I uncover, the more I believe it.
The Secret Origin of AIDS in America


July 16, 2007

I am setting my alarm clock for 5:45 AM tomorrow morning so I can wake up and prepare myself to "Fire the Grid." I don't know how effective this project will be, but it can't hurt to contribute. This gives me a chance to center myself, and make a commitment to the days ahead. I have been at this juncture before. I embrace the world only to get shit on in return. This time things will be different. I am not embracing the world. I am embracing myself. By helping myself, I will help the world. If I can't heal myself, I can not heal anyone. Not much else happening. I really have to sort out what I want to read first. I have a good idea where to start. I figure this is a ten year project in the making.


July 15, 2007

I have down loaded four documents that lay out the future military objectives of the United States:

1. The Regional Defense Strategy written by then Secretary of Defense Dick Cheney - January 1993.
(Scooter Libby also had a hand in the drafting of this document.)

2. Shock and Awe - Achieving Rapid Dominance by Harlan Ullman and others - September 1996.
(If the name sounds familiar, Ullman is named in the DC Madam's court documents as being a client of her out call "massage" service.)

3. Rebuilding America's Defenses - Strategy, Forces and Resources for a New Century.
A Report of the Project for a New Century - September 2000
From what I have been researching, this study further emphasizes the goals of the Cheney paper of 1993.

4. The National Security Strategy of the United States of America - March 2006
This document is the official policy of the present Administration. Again, from what I have researched, it is basically the ideals and the goals previously formulated by Dick Cheney and the neo conservatives that shape the Bush Administration.

The point I am making is this. The decisions made in the last couple years were contemplated and the strategies of action formulated a dozen years ago. The path to Iraq was a road mapped out long before George Bush took office. The road to war was planned long before 911. The idea of US Global domination is a reality.

I have also learned recently that many insiders in Washington believe "Scooter" Libby is an agent working for the Israeli Secret Service organization known as the Mossad. That might explain why Bush pardoned him. It also lends credence to the thoughts of many patriots in this country that the real enemy of the US is Israel. Israeli pre knowledge of the 911 attack is substantial. All you have to do is look at the evidence. It is there in plain sight for all to see. Why has nothing been done despite the mountain of documentation that clearly points to a conspiracy? The answer is too horrible to face. And because of this horror, the Truth remains hidden.

I will read these documents. After I finish them, I will return to my occult studies, my physical alchemy, and creation of my Destiny. I can't change the world. Apparently, our elected officials have neither the political will, nor the desire to investigate ANYTHING that remotely smells of corruption. This observation can only mean one thing. They are all guilty of something. The DC Madam fiasco only proves this point. They all have skeletons in the closet, and if they step out of political line, or blow the whistle on someone, they can kiss their lives good bye. There are two classes of people in this world. The one that rules, and the one that serves. It has been said,

"It is better to rule in Hell than to serve in Heaven."
I have come to the conclusion that this is the mantra of the 21st Century.

I also like this saying,
"Run Silent, Run Deep."

This is the philosophy I intend to live by. I will not be making the above mentioned documents available at this time. If you want them you have to find them yourself. My preoccupation with the New World order is complete. I see the world as it is, and not as I wish it to be. I can only change myself. I refuse to live in ignorance, but I am intelligent enough to realize jousting at windmills is futile. I wish this world was a better place, but it isn't. To balance that, I have to shoulder some responsibility to serve others. I haven't made that commitment because I don't give a rat's ass about the Great Unwashed. If I continue thinking like that, perhaps I am no better than the Luciferian scum that rule. I am better than that. Deep down in my soul, I know I am better than that. I have made a difference, but I have also turned a blind eye to the suffering of my fellow man. I have a lot to think about. I am trying. That is a start.


July 14, 2007

It is 12:30AM, and my mind is filled with many thoughts. I was laying in bed, but I am up now and sitting here in front of my computer. Today is Saturday and I don't have to be to work till 12:00PM, like all the days I punch in. I don't mind the schedule. I can stay up later and get up at 10:00 in the morning. I have plenty of time to get ready and prepare myself for the day. I have Sunday off. I might have to get out and hit the nightclub. Club Inferno is ok. It is a bit of a freak show, but I can go there and not be bothered. That is the main allure of the place for me. The industrial sound is monotonous. I like it for a short time, and then all the sessions sound like the previous one. There really isn't a great deal of creativity involved in the music. It is just a sample sound bite piped into a sound board and the DJ distorts it. Repetition isn't genius. Think I will head over to Yahoo Euchre and play a few hands. My rating is 1906. That is very good. I am a great Euchre player. I don't use the word great to describe myself unless it is justified. I am excited about the plans I have to get back into peak physical shape. I am in good shape now, but that isn't good enough. I am a man that doesn't settle for second best. I never have. That is why I am hard on myself. I demand the best of myself, and I expect others to do the same. Call me arrogant. I don't mind. Arrogance is what drives me.

Here is a beautiful article that demonstrates the fine art of "spin." The article is from the BBC, and it concerns Vang Pao. Let's look at it ...

"General Vang made his name after leading a CIA-trained guerrilla army against the communists when the Vietnam War spread into neighbouring Laos during the 1960s."
Translation:
The US Government wanted to stop the flow of arms supplying the Vietcong going down the Ho Chi Minh trail that cut through Laos on the way to South Vietnam. Vang Pao and his army were hired by the CIA to accomplsih this, as well as kill as many Vietcong as possible.

"When Laos fell to the communists, he and as much as a third of the country's ethnic Hmong population fled to neighboring Thailand amid fears of retribution for siding with the Americans."
Translation:
After The CIA got caught fighting the Vietcong in Laos without the knowledge of Congress, they cut and ran leaving General Pao high and dry. The Hmong people who were loyal to the US had to flee for their lives into the jungle. Those that stayed behind were slaughtered.

"Thailand recently agreed to forcibly return any new Hmong refugees to Laos. This could have been a strong motivating factor behind any alleged coup plot."
Translation: Vang Pao has voiced his desire to return the Hmong people to Laos since he set foot in the US in 1975. He has openly been collecting monies for 30 years in order to bring this plan to force.

I used to like the BBC News. I gave them high marks in the past. Now, I consider them to be a second rate publication spinning news stories out to please who ever happens to be pulling their stings at the moment. The more stories I read, the clearer it has become that they are just as weak and irresponsible as the rest of the world's mainstream news publications. I am finished with them. I have other reliable sources. I also have my documents, and Sy Hersh - the last man standing between us and total news tyranny.


July 11, 2007

It is crucial to move on, move ahead, and stay focused on the road before me. The past is what it is. Patricia Bryan is a monster. She abused her children. She tortured them in unspeakable ways. She has to live with this, and she seems to be doing it with no remorse. Robert Newkirk is a drunken fool who never had the balls to become a man. He beat his children. He tortured his children. So be it! I cut the ties with these people 30 plus years ago. Everything I have accomplished, everything I am is a product of my own Will. I take pride in this. These two individuals have wasted the life given to them. They served their own debase, perverted instincts. They served evil. They are Luciferian scum.

I make a vow to remain positive. I am a healer. I can not move forward until I have healed myself, completely. I took the brunt of the abuse, but I wasn't alone. I feel regret that my brothers and my sister suffered, and that their lives were damaged in the process. But I can not deal with their problems. They are puppets now. The only thing they understand is what they learned from these perverts. That is why I am no longer a member of this family. I will not endure abuse for the sake of putting on a "face" for the family. I have no family, and I never did. The time for healing is now. Today I shed this old skin. I speak the Truth. The light at the end of the tunnel is visible. I will hold my head high, and I will shoulder the responsibilty of putting my house in order. The modus operandi is confidence. I summon the Power within. I employ the Will to change who I am and create the man I am.

Time to get back to basics. Time to Blog! is a positive place, for the most part. Sure, there is political sarcasm and disagreement with the Powers That Be. There is disgust with the ignorance that pervades the American Culture, and the Great Unwashed. There is frustration with myself. But for the most part, this is a site with great links to information. This is a site that doesn't pull any punches. This is a site for those who hear the Drum. This is a good site.


July 10, 2007

Going to head out and go check my PO Box. I imagine it is stuffed with junk mail. I do get correspondence there that is of importance. While I am in the neighborhood, I will pick up some numbers for tonight's Badger 5 Drawing. It is estimated at $180,000. It will most certainly surpass $200,000! That is huge for this particular Wisconsin Lottery game. If I am fortunate enough to snag this baby, I could quit my job at Pick N Save and dedicate myself to creating a position where I am working for myself. That would be nice. When you boil it down, what else is there? Getting drunk and acting like a fool? Think what you are programmed to think and be nothing more than a minion? This seems to be the general consensus.

I down loaded this document on the e-snips web site. Check it out if you like to download stuff; all subjects, music, lots of interesting people.


A Complete Handbook of Natural Cures

This has to be said. I am a chronic procrastinator. This flaw has a great deal to do with my inability to find my niche in life. I have all the tools to create a life worth living, but I haven't been able to focus on what I want to accomplish. That is a character default that I have to correct. Before I can accomplish anything, I have to come to grips with this. This is my greatest demon. Just putting this aspect of my life in focus is a step in the right direction. I know why I am this way. But I am stronger than the forces of darkness that have rallied against me. I know that sounds crazy, but it is true. I was programmed to be weak, docile, and subservient. I have for the most part rejected the programming, but the psychological damage is something that I have to deal with, probably for the rest of my lifetime. I don't talk about this because it is too insane. Others who have endured the same treatment have committed suicide, become substance abusers, or have gone insane. I am one of the few fortunate ones who for some reason never totally cracked. I think about how close I came to being killed in the process. If I had died, it would have been swept under the table. That is how evil works. Doctors can cook the books. I do believe this; I lived for a reason. It wasn't just to punch a time clock for 50 years, collect Social Security for a few more, and die alone - unknown, unloved, and unsung. That is what bothers me the most. Why can't I let it go? It has been said that you must forgive those who have harmed you, whether they be living or dead. I don't think I can. In the grand scheme of things, I think it is possible to go forward without forgiveness. The only person I need to forgive is myself. That I haven't done. I know I am not responsible for the torture, but I hold a grudge against myself for not fighting back. How could I? I was a baby. I didn't have the means to defend myself. I fought back the only way I knew how. I came to the conclusion I was better than them. They could starve me, beat me, burn me, and confine me, but I never became the slave they were trying to create. Sorry if this makes you feel uncomfortable, but this is how evil operates. They pervert, they control, they brainwash. They use guilt as a weapon. They destroy the body and the spirit. Guess what? I won! Kiss my ass. Time to move on. I feel a great weight has been lifted. Maybe not the entire weight, but enough to find some wiggle room out of this black hole of confusion and lack of direction. Now you know why I am obsessed with the Mind, the Body, and the Spirit. I am in a Cosmic struggle. I must remember this, I am the Master of my Destiny. The powers I am capable of conjuring are enormous. This is my Destiny. I can accomplish anything I put my mind to. I just need to focus on that one crucial block that will serve as my cornerstone. The past has no relevance to this undertaking. EUREKA!


July 8, 2007

Was digging through my vast archive of documents. I have more books, articles, and documents filed away than some small town puplic libraries. In all likelyhood, I will never have the time to read it all, but that is ok. As I write, I am downloading information about affiliate marketing. I think there is money in it if you get the right product linked to the correct market. Finding your niche is the key, as it is with most things. Anyway, I was looking at the writings of David Wilcock I have in my archive. Interesting man. He wrote a book called Convergence.

According to Wilcock, "This a book that proves scientifically that the Earth is about to undergo a major transformation into a higher dimension, or a higher level of vibration. This is commonly referred to as "Ascension" or "Harvest," and it has been prophesied, discussed and anticipated by many, many different groups of people and/or spiritual sources, such as the teachings of the Bible and the Mayan prophecies.

I have browsed through the Table of Contents, and it looks like something worth reading. By looking at this document, I learned of another fascinating book called The Ra Material. I put together a site that explains what this material is, and a download link if you want it. The way this material was gathered reminds me of the Seth Material and Jane Roberts. I did read her books back in the early 1980's. I enjoyed them immensely.

I really need to get domestic today. Hate the idea of doing nothing but chores on my one day off, but that is the life of a wage slave. If I don't like it, I need to do something else, which I am. I believe that in the future, regardless of how long it takes, I will be in a position of greater personal and financial freedom. The tasks ahead require a summation of Will that I have not exercised in a decade, but this is what is required. Getting off my dead ass and putting my house in order, physically and spiritually is the only goal I have in this Life. I will find peace in journey. I have not, nor will I find this peace in the material world filled with deceit, ignorance, and a dominate herd mentality. I have said this 1000's times, and the more I say it, the more concrete this Reality is. Enjoy these Links.


July 5, 2007

I came across a web site today that in the past, I would have written off as "just another New Age freak" in contact with Ascended Masters. I have read a great deal of information regarding these so called ascended beings. Some believe they were originally from Atlantis. Some believe they came from Orion, Andromeda, or other parts of the know Universe. Some believe they are the ones who guided the ancient civilizations such as Summer and Egypt, and gave man the knowledge of the written word, our science, and our religion. Some Native Americans believe they are benevolent "Star Brothers", and watch over their people. Some believe they have come to help mankind during this crucial period when the harmonics of the Earth will shift and send us into a higher plane of existence; this higher plane being a far better place than the present. I have provided links scattered here and there in Time To Blog! to some of these writings. These people fall into two distinct camps. These beings are good and want to help us. And, these beings are demons in the service of Lucifer. It is a complicated issue, but a fascinating one. I have to say, some of the things I have read are just plain idiotic and obviously the by products of a deranged, psychotic mind.

If you look at history, many authors have talked about being in contact with beings of this nature. Tesla was said to be in contact with extraterrestrials. Crowley, Bailey, Dr. John Dee, H. P. Blavatsky, Jung and many others too numerous to mention have spoken about their works being guided, if not given directly to them by "angels", or other beings of a supior nature not of this Earth. The Seth books and Jane Roberts comes to mind. Rock and Roll artists have talked about going to the "cross roads" and acquiring musical knowledge that transformed them into what we can only describe as musical geniuses. Eric Clapton wrote a song about the Cross Roads when he was in the band CREAM. In an interview with Ed Bradley, Bob Dylan said he went down to the cross roads and met with "The Commander." Bradley just about jumped out of his skin, "you mean Satan!?", he excalimed. "No, the Commander ... you know the guy running the Earth. He is here, you just can't see him. Anyway, he gave me the songs. I could never write stuff like that. He just didn't give them to me, I had to hold my part of ther bargin." I don't know if the article I read is genuine that tells this tale of Dylan making what seems an obvious pact of some kind for fame and fortune. But the themes of contact with beings that have superior intelligence and knowledge are prevelant. You just have to conenct the dots. SOMETHING is there.

Anyway, here is a story from some woman who claims to be in contact with beings of light. Take it for what it is worth. Her message is positive, and I like that. I realize this may sound odd from a man who has stated that the greatest accomplishment that the Great Unwashed can make to the Universe is annihilating ourselves. I know it may sound strange that a man who has referred to humanity as a pile of maggots should care about the potential of the human spirit. The Truth of that matter is, I do care. Read the following story. Check out the original site. I have provided a link at the bottom of the article; click on her name. There is some nice music you can download in MP3 format also on the download page.

Deep down, I am a compassionate being who desires nothing but good for all. On the other hand, my tolerance level has reach a critical point for ignorance. This is my dilemma, and I have to find a happy medium. That is why I study and research politics, history, the occult, and many other topics. Knowledge is my refuge. Whether I share it or not is still another question. I give freely. But it has been said that a wise man never reveals all he knows, or lets others know what he truly thinks. That is sound advice. Why? Because people are scum and will use whatever means at there disposal to attack those greater than themselves. That is man's true nature. Are we worth saving? I think the jury is still out. Fire The Grid.


July 4, 2007

I just stuck my head out the door, and it is a beautiful day. After I jot a few thoughts down, I will have to make the effort to enjoy the weather. Maybe I will take a walk and gather my thoughts. That is the crux; balance. Balance is the key to everything. When you are out of balance your mind is not at rest, the body is not well, and the spirit is weak. How you achieve balance or maintain it is a personal choice, but it is not something that just happens. It is a state of being that must be kept under close scrutiny.

July 3, 2007

During this time of the year, I think of a guy I knew in Vegas. He trained at the Tang Soo Do Karate Academy, and we worked together teaching the kids classes. Overall, he was a decent person. I believe it was July 3, 1997. He woke up and decided he was going to kill his soon to be ex-wife, and her current boyfriend. I recall telling this story somewhere in Time To Blog! As far as I know, he is still in prison, and will be for the rest of his life. The point is, people wake up and go nuts. It happens. I wonder if that isn't what happened to the WWE wrestling star "The Canadian Crippler?" The news papers are pushing the steroid angle. It sells, and it ties in nicely with the BALCO stories and the athletes involved with Victor Conte. Drugs may have been a factor. Perhaps the entire circumstances will never be known. Maybe it is best people don't realize that on any given day, normal and previously sound minded individuals can crack and go on a killing spree.

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"If someone commits suicide bombing to protect the honor of the Prophet Mohammad, his act is justified."
Pakistan Religious Affairs Minister Mohammad Ejaz ul-Haq

"Giving a medal to someone who is among the most detested figures in the Islamic community is... a blatant example of the anti-Islamism of senior British officials. The measure that has taken place for paying tribute to this apostate and detested figure will definitely put British statesmen and officials at odds with Islamic societies, the emotions and sentiments of which have again been provoked."
Iran Foreign Ministry spokesman Mohammad Ali Hosseini

"The religious bigots really need to get over the Satanic Verses."
Paul Gardner, UK

"I for one will not be shocked at the retaliation that is coming in the UK, and here in the US. It is not a question of if it will happen. I fear it is only a question of when it will."
My June 20, 2007 Blog entry.

I feel I need to make a comment about the TV news broadcasts, and the newspaper articles I have seen and read concerning the recent failed terrorist attacks in London. ALL are linking Al Qaeda to the attempts. NO ONE is mentioning the threats made two weeks ago concerning the knighthood of Salman Rushdie. When important political people make comments like the ones above, people are going to react. Is it so hard to make the link here? A religious fanatic hears these people express what an outrage this award to Rushdie was, and they think to themselves, "this is my Destiny. I will punish these English Infidels to protect the honor of the Prophet Mohammed, and to glorify Allah!" I'm not saying this is the case, but the timing of these comments, and the failed bombing attempts IN LONDON can not be a coincidence. This linkage is not being explored in the news media because someone will make the point that the UK brought this on themselves for awarding Rushdie the OBE. I don't think that is a fair assessment, but the fear that this correlation will be raised has put a lid on the entire analysis.


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