Got up early this morning and shaved my head and face, read some news, and listened to some music. I have to be to work at 1:00 PM and will work till 7:00 PM. I don't plan on going out tonight. I certainly won't drive anywhere. It isn't worth being on the roads on New Year's Eve considering the drunks driving around, and the cops worked up into a prosecution lather. I might walk over to one of the local watering holes close to my apartment, but don't plan on spending too much time or drinking to excess. I have some beer in the fridge I can enjoy. I have January 1st off. I think I might get up early, and finish off the remaining plant material I have. The experience I had a few days ago was superb. I really need to relax more and just let what ever data comes my way to come. It is human nature to try and analyses every detail of the immediate experience, but in this case, it is a matter of absorbing the information and sorting it out at a later date. The information presented doesn't exist in this three dimensional point of observance. I can use an analogy to explain what I am talking about. When you are working with the PowerShell scripting language, you are dealing with objects. The text you see on the computer screen is an approximation of the information the object has stored. These objects of information are not text based. In reality, they are nothing more than 1's & 0's; they are digital. So you are trying to understand information that is written in a digital format, and comprehend it in a model based on written language. When I am immersed in this other dimensional plane, I am directly tapping into an informational stream that is being presented to me visually and in some respects, telepathically. I came to an understanding that this information is also layered! Not only is this data I am experiencing written in a language I can not immediately understand, it is compressed. It is more than just information ... it is knowledge. This method of transference is truly profound.
I have set the bar high for 2010. The goals I am determined to accomplish are formidable. My intuition is strong on this matter; 2010 has the potential to be the most significant year of my life. I can just cruise through it and be battered by the winds of fortune, or I can seize the moment. This statement holds true for any year and any moment of anyone's life. 2010 is different. I can't put it into words. I just know that this coming year brings my life to a point of great intensity and a completion. This climax gives birth to the life I have always tried create, but have been unable to. It is black or white. This is how volatile it is. I can't let my focus stray for a single moment. The rewards and the punishments that will result in my execution are enormous.
May 2010 bring joy, peace, and spiritual prosperity to everyone.
December 29, 2009
It is about 10:00 AM. Am getting a later start on my journey this morning, but I needed the sleep. I have the day off, so it doesn't really matter if this union ends later in the day. I will have enough time to recover before I have to drag my ass back to the shit hole I am unfortunately chained to. My only redemption is that this slavery is temporary. Presently chewing 25 grams of plant material. I don't know what the potency of this particular batch is, but I am confident 25 grams will be sufficient to reach the level of immersion I am seeking. One last comment about my employment situation. It isn't ideal. I must keep in mind that if this is to be a temporary situation, it is imperative that I summon the will to overcome those shortcomings that have held me back from reaching a potential I have till now been unable to create. I know I am capable.
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It's 4:00 PM. I am tired, but satisfied with the events that transpired. Once again, this act of pealing back the veil of three dimensional perception and looking beyond has proven to be a profound experience. A good night's sleep should recharge my batteries.
December 28, 2009
The package I ordered on 12/12/09 arrived today. It took an extra week to get here, probably due to the crushing demands of the Christmas holiday. I am just glad it got here. I do not have to report to work tomorrow. I will rise at 6:00 AM, drink a cup of coffee and ingest 25 grams of plant material. By 12 noon, the experience will have run it's course. I am leery to go into a great deal of description on just what it is I am taking, or go into any specific detail on what it is I am experiencing. I will say this; knowledge is being presented. I have to respect this process. This isn't a party drug, or a party atmosphere. This is a spiritual union. Tonight I will go to bed early and prepare myself mentally and physically for the experience. I have taken 20 grams of plant material previously. I think 25 grams is a better dosage. My prior experiences have been incredible and I expect tomorrow's journey will be as rewarding.
For those of you who actually read this Blog, you know I have a twisted sense of humor. I like to think my sense of humor is a blend of intellectual expression, sarcasm and an appreciation for the absurd. This video is the epitome of all of this.
December 25, 2009
2009 was the year of the Ox. This Ox year was bad for me, being a Ram. True to form, this has not been a great year for me. I had to work extremely hard just to make ends meet. The physical demands have taken their toll. There seems to be some relief on the horizon. 2010 is also going to be challenging, but there should be some opportunity ahead if I am aware of the pitfalls. The Year of the Tiger 2010 is a Yang/Metal year, and it's a year of much activity, drama, changefulness, crisis, and unpredictability. Tiger years are associated with political and social instability or upheaval. Metal is not a very compatible element for Tiger (Tiger prefers Wood and Fire), and thus 2010 is expected to be challenging and turbulent overall. Nevertheless, the Tiger does prefer Yang, and 2010 is a Yang year, which strengthens matters somewhat. It is strong for technological advances and innovations. I am a Wood/Goat born in 1955. From what I have gathered looking at several sources of information, 2010 will be a year of greater intensity both positive and negative. The 55th hexagram has confirmed this. If I follow my game plan and dedicate every waking moment, channel every last drop of physical and psychic energy to creating this new dimensional reality I wish to create, I will succeed. I believe that 2010 is going to be an excellent year to learn the language of the machine and hone new technological skills. To balance that, learning Ojibwe is also going to be crucial. Balance is the key. It is crucial to dedicate myself to this vision. A great opportunity lies before me. The greater the opportunity, the greater the danger. I admit a sense of fear. The stakes have never been higher. These are stakes I relish. Things are black or white. I am in my element.
December 24, 2009
I was looking at YouTube and I ran across a gal who is doing a series of videos that investigate the possibility that Michael Jackson faked his own death. On the outset, it sounds like some nut job off on a tangent, but there is more to this. Her investigation is sound. As someone who prides themselves on research, I can spot shoddy work instantly. From what I have watched so far, her approach and method is top notch. Here is the link to her channel. This investigative endeavor has been very well done, and I really tip my hat to a real pro. I said back on April 12th of this year I believed 100% the guy doing the announcement of the "This Is It" final tour
was NOT Micheal Jackson. I still believe it. This woman is the first person I have run across that has stated that the man doing the interview I am referring to was an imposter. The entire "This Is It" presentation to the world was founded on deception. Is it too far a stretch to believe that Micheal Jackson did indeed fake his own death? Look at the evidence this person presents and decide for yourself.
December 22, 2009
As this month and year draw to a close, I went back and read some of my posts from December 2008. It surprises me to read my own words written a year ago ringing more true and relevant to my present situation. Time and time again, my gut instincts and the analysis I conclude from my research prove to be dead on. If there is a constant I can rely on, a compass to follow amid the chaos of the present times, it is this; my ability to gather information, formulate a solid conclusion based on that information, and proceed with confidence a relevant course of action. On December 21, 2008 I was telling myself that MySQL/SQL was a vital area of IT. Knowing SQL and how to data mine information using SQL was of value and would be a highly sought after skill set. One year later, this conclusion remains solid. Using PowerShell to administer SQL Server 2008 is a gem skill set. This is the knowledge I MUST master in 2010.
My Shamanic workings have taught me this ... everything is language. SQL/MySQL and PowerShell are the language of the machine. In order to master the machine, I must master the language. I belive Ojibwe is the language of the human being. To reunite myself with nature and become a human being, I must master the language. 2010 is a year of great opportunity. It is also a year of great danger. My economic security is in jeopardy. I am confident I will have a job at the store, but my full-time status may be stripped from me along with benefits. I have to squirrel as much money away as possible. I have to follow my gut instincts.
2010 is a special year. I was born in 1955. On August 10, 2010 I will turn 55. What is required is a summation of WILL; a demonstration long over due. I can not let age obscure my vision. Fatigue can not dictate action. A corporate job does not have to be the sole recipient of this effort. There are opportunities to be made in the education of this knowledge of language. On the Number 55 The 55th Hexagram
December 20, 2009
I've added a new gizmo here. This video is well worth watching. You may not agree with the view's of Michael Tsarion. I watched an interview he did with Bill O'Reily on the Fox News Network. He was crucified. This lambast coming from Fox News seems to be out of character; something to think about.
I spent 4-5 hours transferring and collating information. My books, podcasts, and video are better organized now, and properly backed up on my two computers. This time spent was worthwhile considering the years I have dedicated to collecting this data. It's time to systematically begin an earnest study of this knowledge. My New Year's Resolution is leaving my present job in December 2010. From the financial reports I am reading, 2010 is going to be another tough year for the economy. Business is not going to be hiring. Although the thought of slaving away in this position I am in presently makes my flesh crawl, there is value here. I have one year to get substantial job skills under my belt. I have one year to create skill that will enable me to go out on my own and make a living independent of the corporate sham called job opportunity. The best scenario is education. I see no reason why PowerShell, Object Oriented Thought Process, SQL, or Python are not being taught in the schools or in Adult education classes. Obama wants Americans to excel in Information Technology. This is a way to achieve this. There has to be grant money available for someone willing to dedicate themselves to a program like this. Opportunity has to be made. It isn't going to be offered. This is the lesson I see coming out of the present financial meltdown.
December 10, 2009
I never thought I would be adding Tiger's picture to the Wall, but here it is. In the past, I have sarcastically called this picture posting one of two desrciptives; The Wall of Shame and the "I flushed my life down the toilet" club. The Wall of Shame is a venue to show the scum of society, mainly rapists and murderers of all stripes. The latter is something I have reconsidered and am looking at with new eyes. It isn't totally accurate to characterize these people as those who one day woke up and decided to throw their lives away. The things we see, and even to a greater degree, the things we feel are manifestations of something else. Hate is a manifestation of fear. I believe Tiger's romp in the fleshpot is a manifestation of a deeper problem. He has done everything that the great capitalist machine has asked of him. He worked hard and became the best at something. He became the greatest golfer of this generation. This act brought wealth and fame on a global scale. On the surface he has attained everything that this democratic society promises; wealth, fame, family. You see this time and time again. The rich and famous, those who seemingly have it all are miserable and neurotic. Why? They are spiritually sick. This is what the shaman is telling us. The West is sick. Western culture has not only lost touch with the true spiritual nature of existence, they have totally blocked out all memory of it. Materialism and Ego can not replace this void. Sex and drugs are a futile attempt to do so. This is what is behind the sad display of lust and self gratification. It is little wonder that one out of four people are mentally ill in our society.
Read This
This article is dead on, and is supported by detailed information given to President Obama in the resignation letter of Matthew Hoh. He said in the letter the war in Afghanistan is simply fueling the insurgency. When Blood is Their Argument: An Empire on Fire Written by Chris Floyd
December 8, 2009
Not that I honestly care who Tiger Wood's has allegedly played 'hide the salami' with, here is a list I saw today. The only interest I have is the fact that many of these so called encounters occurred in Las Vegas. Having lived there, I know how easy it is to dive head first into the flesh pot. People like Woods who are celebrities and have large amounts of disposable income at their command can have anything and do anything they so desire. I will say this, Tiger had to be crazy to start jumping cocktail waitresses. They have (rightly or wrongly) the worst of reputations. What is believed of them is that they are nothing more than gold-digging whores. I know that in some cases I have found this to be true. They would cut a man's nuts off if they thought they could get money for them. I fear he is in for a rough ride. It would not surprise me to be reading a headline in the very near future that his wife is filing for divorce.
TIGER’S RUMORED WOMEN
1.) Rachel Uchitel. The club hostess was the first of the women to be linked to Woods after the National Enquirer reported that she traveled to Australia to be with Woods during a golf tournament there. So far, she has denied the affair.
2.) Jamie Grubbs. The 24-year-old reality show contestant and cocktail waitress claims she carried on a 31-month-long affair with Woods until his crash last month. She offered a Woods voicemail to prove it.
3.) Kalika Moquin. The 27-year-old club manager from Las Vegas is reported to have had a brief sexual relationship with Woods. She would neither confirm nor deny the report.
4.) Cori Rist. The 31-year-old swimsuit model reportedly met Woods at a Manhattan club last year before they began a sexual relationship that led to Woods flying her out to various secret locations for hook-ups, and her introducing the golfer to her 7-year-old son.
5.) Jamie Jungers. The 26-year-old, who sold her story to a British newspaper, is a former employee of Trashy Girls Lingerie. She said she met Woods in Las Vegas.
6.) Mindy Lawton. The 33-year-old pancake house waitress from Orlando claims she was dumped by Woods in 2007. According to the Post, it was her affair with Woods that was caught on camera by the National Enquirer, when he was snapped dropping her off at her trailer park. The threatening news later led to a Woods Men’s Fitness cover in exchange for the magazine’s silence about the alleged affair, the New York Post reports.
7.) Holly Sampson. The 36-year-old from Los Angeles is a former porn star, who has starred in such films as “OMG, Stop Tickling Me” and “Flying Solo 2.” According to the Sun, she has neither confirmed nor denied her affair with Woods.
8.) Unidentified Alleged Mistress No. 8. A former cocktail waitress from Orlando, Fla. does want to reveal her identity yet, according to her attorney Michael O’Quinn. But this she has said: at the time the affair allegedly began, she was 20 years old and met Woods at the Roxy in Orlando, where she was a VIP server.
9.) Unidentified Alleged Mistress No. 9 is reported to be a “sexy” British TV presenter who was single at the time, but is now married.
10.) Unidentified Alleged Mistress No. 10. is reported in a UK paper to be a “sex-addicted cougar.”
11.) Joslyn James. The star of many, many porn videos was named on the sports blog Deadspin.com as a Tiger regular, but did not respond to the site's call for comment.
December 7, 2009
Added tweetboard to my main page. Very cool gizmo! I don't want to go Twitter overboard, but this tool is functional as well, so I'll test it out. Click on the link to my index page and check it out. You may want it for your site as well. I occasionally like to go back and see what I was writing about last year. This blog serves as a barometer of what I was planning on, thinking about, and working towards during the past years. It is a good mood and progress indicator. December 2008 I was thinking about working towards a Linux+ Certification. I think it was a good idea at the time, but things change. PowerShell and Windows Administration automation is the future of Microsoft and the Windows OS. I have come to the conclusion that learning PowerShell has value, not solely as a job skill that may enable me to get a future IT position. The knowledge I will acquire and the skills I can teach myself are an act of creation; I can enhance my own intelligence. Keeping my brain active and alive is important. PowerShell is the language of the machine. I have become acutely aware of language through my Shamanic workings, and the central role it plays in the creation process. It is difficult to go into detail with this limited space. I need more exploration. I will say this for now; my intelligence and creativity has expanded. This awareness of the role of language is a result of that expansion. I have not been loyal to my instincts this past year, but I am where I feel I am supposed to be. I still languish at the time I have wasted, but in the final analyses, perhaps that time was what I needed to get to this place I find myself in now. What is important is what I do today.
It took the US and the Allied Forces less than two months to kick the shit out of Nazi Germany. They had what was considered to be the greatest armed force the world had seen. You wonder why we can't win the war in Iran or Afghanistan? Obviously, we aren't suppose to. If a US fighting man or woman happens to draw some blood in the process of fighting this "war on terror" they end up being court marshalled.
December 6, 2009
Having a difficult time just relaxing today. I am agitated. I get this way from time to time. The cure is to take a deep breath, and let the world go on it's merry business. I am impressed with the video about the Internet/Social Media phenomena. If you watch it, there is a caption that reads, "what happens in Vegas ends up on Twitter, YouTube, etc." Days later, YouTube has this video of a Tiger Woods voice message telling his mistress to take her name off the phone and replace it with just the number. With the explosion of instantaneous global communication, what happens in Vegas no longer STAYS in Vegas.
I am very happy I have tomorrow off. I have things I want to do, and I will have the time. There is always time, but it is an effort to find it. Tomorrow the effort is diminished. I don't feel like doing laundry right now, but it would be best to get it out of the way while the afternoon is young.
December 5, 2009
This is hilarious!
I have finally finagled two consecutive days off from work. I can not believe that having two days off to enjoy myself has to be a something I have to request ahead of time. I just have to bide my time. Things will get better; I will see to it.
December 4, 2009
The wheels of justice turn slowly, and for social justice, they sometimes never turn. If they do, they grind the bones of those who oppose the status quo. I read that to get to the bottom of the conspiracy issue, whatever that conspiracy is, you have to get to the bottom of what really happened on September 11, 2001. Here is a video that is doing just that.
December 2, 2009
Kick ass video on the social media phenomena. It isn't a fad.
I read a positive article on the future of IT job prospects in 2010. PowerShell will be in my future. I know I can get my foot in the door if I can master the scripting language. According to the article, Windows Administration and Help Desk were at the top of the demand list. I have a link in the Twitter updates section. I also read an article that US companies continue to cut jobs. My modus operandi for the next six months has to be "run silent, run deep." I will be a good little worker, save my money, and learn PowerShell. I will also focus on doing those things that make me happy regardless of economic opportunity. Building a new brain/mind cost you nothing.
For posterity ...
December 1, 2009
I watched Obama's speech tonight. I don't have a comment. He gave a timetable of 18 months to get out of there. Maybe 18 months is all we have left before the shit hits the fan. I see Dubai World is in deep financial trouble. There was a time when $80 billion was pocket change to these wealthy Arabs. A billion dollars doesn't seem to go as far as it used to. The other shoe is ready to drop. The toxic assets, credit swaps, and derivatives associated with the real estate market have greater exposure than the sub-prime mortgage industry did. I have read that we are going to sink into a financial depression more intense than anything the world has ever known. What then? This Dubai mess is the first wave. All I can do is get out of bed each morning, go to work, pay my bills, save money, and continue working on creating a life I am happy with. I feel like I am doing this.
Despite the negative job statistics and the probability that I may not be able to get an IT related job, I have decided to master PowerShell and learn how to use it to administer Active Directory. If I can master PowerShell I can administer Windows period. This is a bona fide skill. There will be a place in the IT workforce to use this knowledge or teach this knowledge. This is what the tea leaves are telling me, and I take my gut instincts seriously. They have not led me astray. The times I have lost my way was when I did not listen to myself. I'm listening now.
I have committed myself to Shamanic exploration. The knowledge and insight I have gained in these past three weeks are profound at the personal level. I can't begin to describe what it is I am experiencing. The best I can do is to say it is has changed my life, and for this, I am truly grateful. No matter what happens from here on out, I know one thing. I know myself. From this foundation, I can finally find peace. I will find time to do all the things that I wish to do ... my physical fitness training, my martial arts, music, and writing. These are all I need. These are the components of my quest - To Seek Knowledge.
