September 2011

 
September 26, 2011

My claim got shot down. I will not pursue arbitration. I have to focus more on what I can do to create a living for myself and less on what others can do. I also have to send back the check I received a few weeks back. A mistake was made and it seems a great deal of money was mailed out to people claiming unemployment benefits who were not supposed to be receiving them. This really hurts, but it is a wake up call. I have to depend on myself here on out no matter what the consequences may be. It's all good.


September 24, 2011

Sometimes I think that Time to Blog! has served it's purpose. My intentions were to provide a link to documentation that might be hard or not easily found on the Internet. People don't care about this anymore. The Internet has changed drastically in the past 5 years, and I am sorry to say, it hasn't changed for the best. Gossip, back stabbing, and innuendo is big business. People don't want to educate themselves. They want to wallow in the shallow end of the intellectual pool. Ignorance is a virtue. The dumber you are, the more popular you are. I need to focus on myself and my needs. I will most likely have to find employment of some sort very soon; a part time position will suffice for the moment. I have enough funds to pay my bills for three more months. After that I am in a world of trouble.

I am still on the right track. In fact, my focus on what I really want to do with the rest of my life has never been sharper. Given this current state of affairs, I need to focus on what I need and not on making web pages and uploading documentation to this site. I'm not putting Time to Blog! aside permanently. I am going to have to take some time off and continue moving forward on the path I am on. I feel good.


September 19, 2011

I may of spoken too soon. I did receive a check from unemployment, but my claims are still being challenged by the low lives that run the store. That is to be expected. Time is a wonderful tool. It heals physical and emotional wounds. It is difficult to see the cause of suffering when you are up to your neck in it. I have never been in a better place than I am now. My case is again being reviewed and a final decision will finally be rendered soon. If I am turned down, I have the option of taking it to the Wisconsin Labor Relations Board, or to arbitration. I don't know if I will or not. Maybe it is time to go on with my "projects" and live. Is it the injustice of the corporate/feudal economic systems I demand justice from, or is it just a smoke screen my mind has created? What I have always wished for was justice for those closest to me who plunged the knife deeply into my back. Will a pound of flesh heal me? No, it won't. They say living well is the best revenge. I don't think I even care about revenge anymore. Good people have sold their souls to entities that will use them and later discard them when they are finished sucking their dignity and their humanity from their bones. They think they are preserving their lives and their current life styles by doing the bidding of scum. They have sold their souls for a bowl of rice. What revenge can I seek that injures them more than the injury they have inflicted upon them selves?


September 10, 2011

I can not remind myself often enough that I am blessed. No matter how close to the brink of financial or emotional ruin I may come, I have managed to escape relatively unscathed. My unemployment claim went through. There really wasn't any reason why it should not have, but that is no assurance. There is little justice in the world. In my case, there seems to be enough to squeak by. I still remember living on the streets all those years ago. How I managed to survive still eludes me. The only conclusion I have is that there are angels watching over me. For this, I am grateful. I know that I have a responsibility to continue striving to make this world a better place. The powers of darkness and light will continue to battle over my soul. They can battle all they wish. The battle to retain clarity rests with me. As easy as it is to hate those who do me wrong, I know that I can not. I don't make promises lightly. If I am to stand in judgment for the conduct of my pitiful life, I can at least say, "I did my best to lead my fellow man out of the darkness".




September 2, 2011

The unemployment claim got screwed up. I don't know if the fault is mine, or theirs. It looks like it will be back on track. I have to file a complaint with the Wisconsin State Labor Relations Board. I said I can not count on this claim, but I want it. I have not been doing well waiting for this to resolve itself, only to find out it has been fucked up. That doesn't make me look good.




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