October 2011

 


October 23, 2011

I've said this before. Every time life has cast a shadow of uncertainty across my path, I have cheated Death. I have said that there must be angels watching over me. Once again, this has transpired. This time is different. The opportunity before me is the greatest financial bonanza I have ever witnessed in this sad story that is my life. I could go on for days explaining what this job is, but it doesn't matter. It is legitimate. It is a career opportunity of immense magnitude. I don't know how in the fuck it ever came my way. I can make $60,000 a year living here in bum fuck Wisconsin. It is something I will have to learn how to do. It is a great responsibility. But I can make it happen. I am almost afraid of how well things look at he present moment. I don't want to fuck this up.

On October 17, 2011 another miracle happened. The last piece of the puzzle fell into place. I said I know myself. I was mistaken. Now I know myself. When it rains, it pours. If I never have a single stroke of luck in my life, it is to be expected. Destiny has shot it's wad. The rest is up to me. I don't even know what to say. I just have to keep doing what I am doing. Everything is going to be ok.

October 15, 2011

I had thought that if I ever walked away or lost this job I had at the store, I faced the possibility I may never find work again. Looks like this is the case. My nest egg saved will soon be depleted and then I will be without a home. I suppose there are worse things in the world. The way things are looking, it won't be too much longer before we all find ourselves in a grave of some sort or another. I still have aces up my sleeve. I am looking into getting my CNA license reinstated. This is my best option. I can't dwell on this for long. I have to make it happen before I run out of money to live on. I will be ok for a few more months. After that, I am in a world of hurt. The greatest immediate danger is depression. If I am paralyzed with despair, I will not be able to continue the fight to become something greater than I presently am. Failure can not be an option.

This statement is good. All the media resports and comments by the so called experts is horse shit in comparision.




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