The store was busy yesterday. I didn't think that many people would be picking up last minute Thanksgiving food items, but it seems they did. I do not belive this shows an improvement in the economy. Families are hell bent on providing a traditional holiday meal regardless of the financial sacrifice. I did not buy anything special to eat today. I am going to cook up whatever it is I would normally cook up on any given day. I am thankful for many things. I have my health. I have my sanity. And to a certain degree, I still have my freedom, or the illusion of it. Even an illusion is better than what the future may hold. I am glad I am off from work. I will enjoy the time I have today to spend alone and away from the maddening crowd.
November 24, 2009
I don't remember the exact date, but it has been one year since I turned off the TV. It was odd at first, but now, I don't even have a desire to turn it back on. I enjoy my Internet connection. If I turned that off, I would most likely suffer a degree of withdrawal. Instead of watching mindless crap designed to brainwash me, I can pick and choose to a larger degree what kinds of entertainment I want to enjoy. I have podcasts and web casts. I can educate and entertain myself in a single stroke. I have books, manuscripts, and articles to read. I can stay in touch with local, state, national, and world events without the aid of television. Turning off the TV was a wise decision.
Upgrading my computer skills is a necessity. If I don't, I will not have a place in the New Financial World Order. Not that I am guaranteed a place to begin with. I may be considered obsolete, but I am going to make an effort to try and create a place. I do not relish the things that are to come, but I know that the corner has been turned; it is going to come and nothing at this juncture is going to stop it. Divine or extra-terrestrial intervention is the only thing I see that can curb the One World Government reality.
November 23, 2009
The predictions of Gerald Celente have been dead on. His analysis of what the bailout is all about is also dead on. I hate to see this, but I refuse to turn on the TV, bury my head in the sand, and delude myself that things will get better. I know for a fact the United States is circling the drain, and only a fool or a coward can think otherwise. Having said this, I still hold on to the promise and the belief that I can somehow survive this coming financial Armageddon. My heart tells me I will somehow survive, but my intellect tells me I will be caught in the net just like everyone else. I know my life doesn't add up to a hill of beans. I realize that in the scope of the New World Order, I am just a maggot. There is no political solution. There is no diplomatic solution. There is no financial solution. The only solution is a spiritual one. I am not religious. I was raised Roman Catholic. I was an alter boy when the mass was in Latin. I saw the Church for what it is; a perverted nest of sexual deviants. I wrote some years back on Time To Blog! that the parish I belonged to ran an underground railroad for pedophile priests. I have no love for religion in general. But from my study of the occult, I have come to a conclusion. There is an energy that we are all part of. It exists. Some tap into it to fuel their own personal agendas. Some tap into it to help mankind. It all boils down to this. I have struggled with this. Part of me certainly walks the Left Hand Path. I won't deny that. But I also know that I have the ability to heal. I haven't pursued this because I still think on a deep level that humanity is nothing more than scum walking upright. What has mankind done for me? I can tell you what mankind has done; stabbed me in the back at every turn. Why should I give a rat's ass about my fellow man? This is why I am still leaning towards my continuance on the Left. This doesn't mean I am an ass hole hell bent on exploiting man. I am leery. I bend my knee to no one if at all possible. I am the master of my own destiny. These are things I hold dear, and these surely are attributes of a Lord of the Left Hand Path. I will continue to live my life marching to the sound of my own drum. But I will treat those people who treat me well with great reverence and respect. And for those who despise me ... God have mercy on them because I won't. Despite what I am saying, I am still a spiritual being. For me, spirituality does not mean I am a goody two shoes blindly following religious dogma. Spirituality to me is a statement of awareness of the universal energy that is the Cosmos. In the final equation, all that matters is love. This love has to begin with love for yourself. After that, a choice has to be made on the next step. I am still working on the former. The latter will be what it will be.
This clip is worth listeneing to.
November 22, 2009
This is a new video production from Alex Jones. It is a follow up to a video made earlier - The Obama Deception. I enjoyed the former, and I am sure this new production is something of value. I downloaded a copy to view later, but I am providing it here for those of you who would like to watch it.
I am trying to remain positive. I have no desire to live the remaining years of my life living with hate, despair, and no prospects for peace or joy. I know I have the capacity to create joy in my life and no matter how dismal the world situation becomes, and this is the reality of what is happening. Life in the present day is nothing more than a living hell. I mentioned earlier that I was finally on to something. I still can't define what this something is, I know I am on the right path.
November 19, 2009
Snowballing frustration about the economy burst into a political fracas Thursday, with several lawmakers calling on Treasury Secretary Timothy Geithner to resign over angst about unemployment and Wall Street bailouts. When pressed on the issue Geithner responded,
"I'm going to tell Henry (Kissinger) on you.
November 18, 2009
My writing has dwindled, but it has been a trying month. I have been scheduled to work fours days here, with a day off, followed by a series of more days on with only a single day in between. I have made it known to management I need two consecutive days off this coming week. I need the time to decompress.
Other than not having enough time to relax, I feel OK. I am off today so will make the best of what little time I have.I can't go into a great detail but I am coming to terms and finding my way towards living a life I feel good about. It is sad going through the years, plodding along not really content or grounded. This has changed. I still do not have any prospects for a career on the horizon, but I can live with that. Being happy is all I want. I have to practice what I have always preached to myself. "Master Yourself, and all else will fall into place." One of these days I may go into more detail on what it is I am doing to make this possible, but it is a personal thing, and I am not yet ready to put it into words.
November 10, 2009
I have a great deal to write about, but won't be doing so at this moment. I wanted to include this lecture by Manly P. Hall. It is the first part of a five part series. I am reading his opus "The Secret Teachings of All Ages." It is a monstrous book, but I will read a chapter a day and eventually the goal of completing this enormous volume will be complete. Enjoy this lecture. I have embarked on a great journey. For once in my life, I feel I am finally on the correct track. I can not lose sight of this accomplishment. I will fill in the details on a later date.
November 5, 2009
Over the past couple days I went and had breakfast at McDonald's. To be more precise, I had the McDonald's Deluxe Breakfast that includes the following; 3 small pancakes, a sausage patty, scrambled eggs, a hash brown, and a bisket. The fixings include syrup and butter for the pancakes, salt and pepper, and a cup of coffee. I like this breakfast, but it doesn't like me. Once again, I saw flab forming on my gut, and I have come to the conclusion that this breakfast combination is the main culprit. I think it is a sad fact, one that has been proposed earlier, that "fast" food is fattening. Personally, I find little doubt in the conclusion. I would rather have my abs looking good than enjoy the sensory delights of McDonald's cuisine. Given the opportunity, my gut will explode into a tire of fat hell bent on chocking the life out of me, and this is something I won't let happen. I have made excellent strides in getting back into shape, and I have to be more diligent.
November 4, 2009
Police in Clevland Ohio are expanding their search of a convicted rapist's neighborhood and his neatly kept home, where 10 bodies have been found in the basement, buried in the backyard, in an upstairs living room and in a crawl space. In addition to the four latest bodies they found buried in the backyard of Anthony Sowell's home on Tuesday, authorities found a skull wrapped in paper inside a bucket in the basement.
Shades of John Wayne Gacy, Jr. Between 1972 and 1978, the year he was arrested, convicted, and later executed, Gacy raped and murdered at least 33 young men and boys. Although some of his victims' bodies were found in the Des Plaines River, he buried 29 of them in the small crawl space underneath the basement of his home. At least Gacy dressed the part of a clown. I have been reading and listening to podcasts about the archons. Is it possible that entities or other dimensional beings are feeding off our negative emotions? Can these horrible butchering of human beings be attributed solely to demonic possession? On the other hand, if you want to look into the face of evil, take a peak in the mirror next time you are brushing your teeth.
November 3, 2009
There was a time when did not care about money. I did not care for public opinion. I lived a life of lone intellectual pursuits. I cared not for the company of others. I think I was happier then. This wasn't a life of balance, but a life of balance is still something that has remained at arms length. This is what I need to pursue. Striking a balance between having enough money to survive, and even "live a little" is something I desire. How I am to acquire this money is another story. I never have been one to run with the rest of the rats. The fastest way to reach stupidity is to believe the horse shit that Corporate America feeds you; the cream rises, hard work results in promotion, loyalty is rewarded, etc. The truth is far different
... thanks for your hard work and dedication to the corporation these past 20 years. We are finished with you. Remove yourself from the premises, or you will be escorted out.
This is why I have refused to join ranks. I worked for the casinos for 12 years. I did it on my terms, and since I excelled at what I did, my "insubordinations" were overlooked. I called the shots so to speak. It wasn't without conflict, but for the most past, I didn't take shit from anyone. Those were good days. Things haven't been good lately. The economy dictates what Corporate America can do, and that essentially is anything it damn well pleases. Those of us with jobs, and even better yet, full time jobs with benefits are nothing more than slaves. Profits are squeezed out of our hides by cutting hours and demanding greater productivity ... 2 people doing the same work as 5. Fear mongering is an accepted managerial tool. Forget about state and federal laws forbidding harassment and hostile work environments. You don't like being treated like shit? There's the front door. There are 15 million people looking for full time work. You aren't anything special. I am feeling frustrated with the way things are, but I have to get a broader view of what is really important. This is what I have/need to do; forge my sword. I am guilty of this infraction. I have not created a foundation. I have not created a future, or goals towards creating this future. That is why I am unhappy. Sure, the current financial state of affairs is partly responsible. I have to shoulder the greater blame. The anger I am feeling is self directed. The sad thing is it is almost too late at this stage of my life to matter. Yes it is late, but better late than never?
November 1, 2009
A new month begins. Life is bitch-slapping me around, but I continue to resist the temptation of rolling over and giving up on the notion of creating something worthwhile with the time I have left. I am putting money away in my sock fund, and when this fund reaches $10,000 I will have an opportunity to explore better job options. Was looking at prerequisites for employment in the IT workforce, help desk and entry levels, and A+ Network+ Security+ Certifications are necessary. Couple that with knowledge of Active Directory and PowerShell (and Quest's Cmdlets) and I think I could get my foot in the door. I don't know if the amount of work needed to get an entry level position justifies the income levels the overlords are willing to pay. I know I have to seriously consider this option because IT is a viable long term employment track. I need to write. I have been saying this for years, but I need this. I also need to get back to training. I have been so consumed with earning a living, I have lost sight of what living is all about. I did slim the flab off my gut. The power of thought and intent is my stong suit. I have to WILL myself to change. I have the power.
