The late Frank Zappa hits the nail right on the head; America moving towards a Fascist theocracy. He was scorned and ridiculed on this CNN broadcast that aired 20 years ago.
January 29, 2010
Detectives confirmed that a body buried under a concrete slab in a rural backyard was Abraham Lee Shakespeare.
I had read about this man's disappearance a few weeks ago. Foul play was suspected. Looks like that suspicion was correct. In the present economic climate, if you have big money you are a target. The article I read today telling of his fate said the man was barely literate. The poor bastard never had a chance. I will play the Mega-Millions Lottery when tickets go on sale this Sunday. I will give this thing a chance. I still think I have a shot at winning a piece of the lottery. I may not win the whole enchilada, but I think I might win something. Even something would be enough for me to start a new life. My present life is OK, but $100,000 would make things easier. Knowing that I have enough money to maintain a roof over my head, put gas in my vehicle, and put food on the table would mean a great deal to me. I could go back to school and acquire skills that would enable me to work for myself. I am going to accomplish this anyway with or without a lottery win. The win would make it easier.
January 28, 2010
I have put PowerShell on the back burner permanently. This CLI and scripting language is an administrative tool. The IT prospects for 2010 are grim. Network Administrators with 10 years experience are currently unemployed. My chances of getting my foot in the door of the IT workforce because I may know something about PowerShell are virtually zero. If I were a Network Administrator currently employed, I would be on PowerShell 100%! PowerShell is the future of Microsoft administration. If I knew Java and how to use Netbeans, I might have a shot at securing employment somewhere. I have the technical manuals; if I were to earmark time to learn anything computer technical, it would be Java. The Oracle acquisition of Sun Microsystems confirms this. My latest shamanic work has emphasized my strengths and weaknesses. In order for me to live out the remainder of my life in a state of relative joy, I need to be doing something career oriented that I would consider a labor of love. This drugging through life day in and day out simply working at something I consider to be nothing more than just labor is not going to cut it anymore. I will surely end up laying on my deathbed regretting my life and failing to be something greater than what I presently am. My disgust with the great unwashed hasn't changed, but I am a healer. I always have been and I know my prehistoric ancestor was a great healer and shaman. Through the healing of others, I heal myself. This I know from personal experience. I can not let my disdain for ignorance derail me from dedicating myself to the healing arts. My destiny does not lie in the pursuit of technological knowledge. This is something I enjoy and will continue to purse for the benefit of increasing my intellect. But Information Technology is not my ticket to a career position or the foundation from which my personal satisfaction and joy will arise from. I have to become in this life what I have been in my past lives; a healer. I have a plan. My goal for 2010 is to implement this plan. If I remain faithful to this pursuit, I will find peace. I need this more now than ever. The details of this plan will be the subject for a latter entry.
January 25, 2010
Everyone wants to be rich and famous. We look at out mundane lives and think it would be swell to have fame and riches. Gary Coleman was on that road, and look where it has taken him.
I am doing well. Yesterday's journey was incredible. I am starting to understand in great detail who I am, where I came from, and where I am going. More later.
January 22, 2010
There is a woman who works at the store, who is for all practical descriptions, a right wing fundamental Christian. I even wonder if she isn't a member of Joel's Army. Her position is light years from where I sit, but we agree on one issue; President Obama isn't going to come through on doing what he promised. That is putting it in a nutshell, but that is the crux of it. I often wonder if Alex Jones is a genuine voice opposing the New world Order, or a misinformation agent. The rabbit hole goes so deep, it is almost impossible to "get to the bottom" of what the truth is. I do find the video he puts out informative. Here is one I watched today.
January 19, 2010
I am due in at the store later this afternoon so I have some time to relax, read, and write something. I might even listen to some podcasts. I need to start learning Ojibwe. I think it is important. My package arrived today. I will have to wait and see what days and hours I will be working the coming week. More than likely, I will able to continue with my shamanic explorations Saturday night or early Sunday morning. I have made four excursions into the unseen. I don't know what to expect, and expectations are better left at the door. The key is to allow the flow of energy and information to proceed unimpeded. This is difficult considering human proclivity to analyze, dissect, and quantify information. This knee-jerk reaction has to be controlled. In fact, control is a dirty word. Giving up control and trusting the plant to guide you is essential to a fruitful and rewarding experience.
January 18, 2010
Am disappointed the post office won't be delivering mail today. Was planning on getting my package and doing some shamanic work. Will read and listen to some podcasts instead. Still reading bad news concerning the global financial recovery. Looks like Asia is picking up, but Europe and especially the USA are behind the eight ball. My gut is telling me to pursue my plans of creating saleable skills. If Asia is where it is at, and will be for the foreseeable future, I should go there. The Vietnamese gals in Vegas told me I should go to Vietnam. They thought I would do well there. I think they were right.
January 17, 2010
Off today and tomorrow. I don't know how long this arrangement will last, but I certainly could get used to having two consecutive days off to enjoy myself after putting in my time at the store. I don't have any plans today. I am not going to put myself in a position where I am telling myself, "you have to do this ..." I know I have things I need to stay on top of, but I also need time to just sit and enjoy the moment without creating pressure on myself. Existing day to day in the choas that has become normal life is pressure enough. Been investigating Michael Tsarion. I don't like what I am finding. Am disappointed that one of my favorite podcasting sites has hitched itself to Tsarion's star and is propagating his view points. This was evident in an interview I listened to with guest John Lash. The host of Red Ice Radio, Henrik Palmgren, didn't come right out and attack Lash, but did ask some questions that I thought were insensitive to his beliefs. It was obvious that Tsarion's views are becoming Palmgren's. I find this development disturbing. Tsarion has made what I deem wild, inaccurate, and even outlandish comments, observations, and conclusions. Red Ice has jumped on this band wagon.
January 14, 2010
I've discovered podcasting and enjoying them immensely. I listen to programs of all sorts; political, information technology, esoteric, etc. I am going to put a list together and add this list to my link bar on the main site. I love the fact I can download them and listen to the programs at a time of my own choice. Will be doing more shamanic work soon, possibly this coming Sunday. I have a lot of things going on right now. I will elaborate at a later date.
January 11, 2010
Changed the oil on my vehicle and will put two new front tires on it this afternoon. Hate spending money on the old girl, but I need to keep her on the road and running as well as possible. I have lost the desire to upgrade my computer administration skills. This knowledge will not get me a job. It will increase my intellect so for that reason alone, I should continue down this path. Might as well put some laundry in and prepare some breakfast.
January 10, 2010
I don't know how it happened, but I was scheduled two consecutive days off this week. The last time I had two consecutive days off, I had to use a personal day to arrange it. I have been working on this type of scheduling for the past year and a half. This may not seem like a big deal to anyone, but not having two consecutive days off to enjoy life and recuperate from the week's toil is a big deal to me. I will take the opportunity and enjoy myself as much as I am able. Given the current state of affairs, that is difficult. The employment situation is horrible. 2010 is not going to be better. There are more serious economic bombshells waiting to explode. I would not reject the notion that rioting in the streets in 2010 is beyond the realm of probability.
I read a news article this morning ...
The only reason the unemployment rate remained unchanged at 10% - even though the nation lost nonfarm jobs - was that many jobless Americans gave up the search last month, which statistically removes them from the government's tally of the labor force. Those unemployed people who quit looking - categorized as "discouraged workers" - now number 2.5 million.
Another 9.2 million Americans can find only part-time jobs but need full-time pay, leaving them underemployed. Adding in the 15.3 million who officially were unemployed in December, the number of unemployed and underemployed Americans totals 27 million, according to the Bureau of Labor Statistics.
That brings the government's fullest measure of unemployment and underemployment to 17.3% in December, second only to the 17.4% rate in October, which was the worst on record since the government began tracking such figures in 1994.
The share of unemployed people who have been without work longer than six months rose sharply to 39.8%, a postwar record.
The only job I am going to be able to secure if I decide to leave the store I am currently employed at is to create that job. I have said this before, and the current economic data I am collecting supports this. Corporate America is not going to hire me. The job I have currently is the last one I will have that involves punching a time clock according to a corporate time frame. I will end my working career punching my own time clock. I deserve that. I am tired of kissing moronic ass hole. I am sick and tired of playing the fool.
January 5, 2010
Enjoying my day off. Was thinking about the whole "New Year's Resolution" thing. It has it's value, but it is a misconception. It is based on the idea of linear time. Linear time is an illusion. December 31 is no different a day than January 1. The change of a calendar year is man made. It is true that the procession of the stars can be marked by calculation, but is this time? All we have is today. The demarcation of days, years, and decades is an invention to collect and compile data. In preindustrial society the marking of time had a purpose. There were certain months that were better suited to plant crops. There were times when rivers would rise above their banks. The charting of annual flood was crucial. To master the season was a matter of survival. The priest craft understand the ebb and flow of energy. To harness it, an understanding of future events was necessary. The flow of time had a function. Time in postindustrial society has been created to express something else. We have to punch a time clock. The passage of time is no longer entwined with a growth of culture. It is a chain of subservience. For those who understand time, it is a power to harness. This is the difference between the slave and the sorcerer.
I will read today and hit the Iron Gym. As far as time goes, I will use it wisely. I will save money. I will educate myself. Wealth and knowledge are the great demarcations. Squandering what little wealth I have accumulated in this present life was a grave mistake. I have learned from this.
Here is a video I made today for YouTube. I briefly discuss 2010 and what may lie in store.
One last piece of information concerning 2010. This isn't good news. Listen to this MP3 on the outlook of globalfood price increases. I am going to buy 100 pounds of rice today at one of the Asian Markets located in the Madison area.
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Just got back from the YUE WAH Market at 2328 S. Park Street Madison Wisconsin. A 50 pound bag of Selected Premuim Jasmine Rice from Thailand cost $39.00.
That is .78 a pound. I'm going to check the price of a similar 1 lb bag of rice at the store tomorrow. I plan on buying another 50 pound bag next week. That will hold me for the rest of this year. I may even purchase more to stock away for the coming, uncertain future.
January 3, 2010
Am feeling good about this new year. Not that I think Obama is going to resurrect the economy. I am feeling good on a personal level. This last experience I had in my Shamanic exploits was a real mind fuck. That is the only way I can accurately describe it. I will never be able to gaze into a mirror and look at myself in the same way. This is a good thing from an awareness standpoint, but from a comfort aspect it is horrifying. I will have to go into details someday, but today isn't the right time. Finished reading the first chapter of my Object Oriented Thought Process book; 50 pages or so. This book is going to make all the difference in being able to grasp PowerShell and Python. Add a solid understanding of XML to this, and I think I will be set. There will be no reason I won't be qualified to be a phone jockey at some IT company. Of course I will have to teach myself SQL. That will be the frosting on the cake. These four areas of computer science will be the foundation to get a job in the IT work force. I will use PowerShell to administer Active Directory. I will use PowerShell to work with SQL databases. These are hard skill sets. I may not be able to incorporate all of this knowledge into my neural network by the end of 2010, but I will incorporate enough to get my foot in the door. And even if I don't, I will increase my intellect. Building this neural network is an act of creation in itself. I can just imagine the looks I would get if someone were to ask me, "what is your New Year's Resolution?", and I responded, "I am building a superior neural network."
I have been watching Tsarion video. I like some of the things he is saying. Some of the things he is teaching is shit. He contradicts himself. I was going to read some of his books, but I may spend time on other manuscripts. Here is a good source of information on the shadow government ...Webster Tarpley.
January 2, 2010
Started reading The Object-Oriented Thought Process Third Edition by Matt Weisfeld this morning. I had started this book a few months back, but didn't finish it. In order to work with the Powershell Scripting Language, and the CLI, I have to understand the concepts of Object Oriented Programing (OO). In order to understand Python, IronPython, or Ruby, I have to understand OO. In order to appreciate the power of XML, UML, or SQL, I really need to understand OO. In order to grasp .NET and the Common Runtime Language, I need to understand OO. In order to grasp WMI, I need to understand OO. You get the picture. There is a method to this madness. It is a matter of starting from the beginning. In this case the beginning is the foundation on which all other programing languages and libraries are based; The Object Oriented Thought Process. I will be able to view the PowerShell video presentation course I found featuring the scripting master Don Jones as I read this book. I was serious when I said 2010 is a crucial and dangerous time for me. This year is a moment in time that presents me with the opportunity to finally create a life I can be happy living. The culmination of all my experience and knowledge is required to make this happen. If I waffle, I am screwed. I will die a bitter, broken man. Of this I have no doubts. I will learn PowerShell. I will hone computer skills I can utilize in the IT workforce. I will write my book. I will get back into black belt shape physically and mentally. And I may even find a soul mate if I open myself to that possibility.
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Read this story at work while on break. Is the world going crazy?
A year ago, Igor, a 130-pound brown bull mastiff, caught a break from Dane County Circuit Judge Juan Colas.
Instead of a death sentence, Igor was ordered to spend his life at Happily Ever After Animal Sanctuary in Marion, about 40 miles west of Green Bay, for attacking a 13-pound Bedlington terrier in August 2008 at a Middleton dog park. The severely injured terrier had to be euthanized. Igor is "loving life here at the sanctuary" with 65 other dogs and 150 cats, said Happily Ever After president Amanda M. Reitz,
... but we can see how he would struggle living a life in a home or community setting due to the fact that he was not socialized properly or taught the things that are expected from a dog in today's society.
I have a link to the story in my Twitter post if you want to read the whole story. Since when does a dog have to learn what is expected of it in today's society. What "society" are we talking about? I suspect a society of morons. If there was ever a signal to the Powers That Be the the time is ripe to finally bring in the New World Order, this is it!
January 1, 2010
Finished earning my daily bread and came straight home. I cooked up a thick juice T-Bone steak, washed it down with a cold bottle of Pyramid Hefewrizen, and went to bed early. I seriously thought of going out to Club Inferno in Madison, but decided against it. It is cold, the cops will be out in full force cracking heads, and the prudent choice was to lay low. I even considered walking over to one of the local watering holes nearby, but rejected that option as well. My main goal was to get some sleep, get up early, and consume the remaining 25 grams of plant material I have left. It is 3:30 AM. I didn't expect to wake up this early, but I feel refreshed and felt the need to jot down some thoughts this New Year's Day. I know things are going to get crazy this year. Terence McKenna may have been correct in his observation that history, as we know it, is winding down and several cycles of time are converging simultaneously. The culmination of these cycles is December 21, 2012. A 67 year cycle, a 13 month cycle, and a 6 day cycle will all reach a climax at the same moment on this exact date. During the six days before the winter solstice of 2012, history will witness greater novelty than previously seen since time began. This translates into something like this; the shit is going to hit the fan. I am grateful I came to the realization that I still have things to accomplish in my life. I am grateful I decided not to go through with my original plans on terminating my life when I turned 50. This decision to end it all at 50 was made when I was 10. I know that is crazy, but it was beneficial. I was determined to do all I could, and accomplish everything possible before I reached 50 years of age. Somehow I knew I was going to experience some health problem, and that there was a strong possibility that I would be crippled. I did not want to end my days languishing in pain achieving nothing. This event did come to pass in 1997 at the age of 42. I was able to overcome the devastating results of the aneurysm, rehabilitate myself, and move forward stronger than ever. In the year 2000, I did have a vision of a sort. I knew something was going to happen in 2012. I even told people close to me ,"enjoy life now because in 12 years, those of us left standing will probably wish we weren't." I didn't know if the world was going to end, but I was aware that some catastrophe was going to occur, and I still believe that. This catastrophe may be physical, and it may be emotional. I am starting to lean toward an event or series of events that will transpire and traumatize the psyche of humanity in some hideous way. Believing this you would think I would string a rope up this moment, hang myself, and get it over with. But something of this magnitude has to be experienced. I want to see what Fate dishes out the six days prior to December 21, 2012. If it is to be a monumental point in the history of humanity, I want to be standing right there, staring Destiny square in the eyes, and not blink. What ever may happen two years from now will happen. The beauty is the amazing opportunities that are presenting themselves to me now. These opportunities are intellectual. Opportunity to accumulate wealth would be nice, but the expansion of my consciousness and intellect is truly amazing. This is a great time to be alive. I intend to seize this moment. I know I am going to be physically challenged. The martial arts have taught me that by challenging the body, we challenge the mind. I am also very excited with the prospects for this book idea I have. This idea has come directly out of my Shamanic workings. In about three hours, I will begin another journey into the realm beyond this three dimensional plane of existence my senses are limited to. I am prepared to just let this experience unfold, and not analyze the data/information/knowledge being presented. Today my journey towards excellence begins. Today I look Destiny square in the eyes and say, "bring it on."
